I wish that there was a socially acceptable way to say, “I’m having a bad mental health day and need you to pay attention to me,” without alienating everyone.
or: “I’m having a bad mental health day and need to be on my own for a while so please don’t be mad if I cancel our plans on short notice.”
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I never got the “over dramatic” of two hearts racing.
I never got to see you panic.
Your face sat there patient.
And I was waiting for your
Calm composure to finally be over.
And you’d scream “J please”
“Just stay with me”
“I know I changed a lot, but before you go and change everything”
You could of said anything.
But your silence made it clear to me.
I thought if we loved before I’d be worth a little more.
And im so confused, when did we lose our ways?
But I was so vulnerable you could of lied to me more.
But I was blinded by how much we used to be.
That I didnt see you falling out of love with me.
I missed all the signs driving down your dark road.
Been on it so long dont know how im ever getting home.
I wasn’t ready for the quiet.
No burst out in violence.
No “baby I’m not lying”
You sat there all silent.
No sad music from violins.
Just earthquakes and sirens.
When the one you love just stops fighting.
And your the only one still trying.
Its scary when you see it dieing.
She was your ground and now she’s flying.
I wasn’t ready for nothing but loving you.
So im sorry if I wasn’t ready for this.
JmikeC (via j0-s)